Insomnia and Memory Loss

I couldn’t sleep last night. I’ve only had one hour of sleep. So feeling delicate.

Anxiety is all consuming at the moment. Went to the supermarket but felt overwhelmed so I couldn’t get everything I needed. It’s hard not to feel bad about myself. I must remember that it’s an achievement.

I tend to go in cycles with this.

Stayed round a friend’s house last night as I didn’t want to be on my own.

When I feel like this it feels like everyone is shouting at me even when they’re just talking.

I need to make a doctors appointment but I don’t feel up to phoning them. I tried the online appointment system but it failed. I must ring soon.

I’m reading a good book on emotional resilience which I’m hoping will improve my condition.

My coping strategies have fallen apart and in some ways so have I.

I’m needing to reach out at the moment as life feels very traumatic. I need to build up the strength to attend the support group meeting later.

All my routines have fallen in to disarray. I’m feeling lost at sea.

Sometimes trauma burns me up so much that my sense of self gets totally consumed. The flames of pain can burn themselves away eventually but it is a highly traumatic journey each time this happens.

I hope it doesn’t sound like moaning. Must find some strength. This past two weeks has been a huge struggle.

I have has really bad memory loss this past two weeks. Luckily my friends are reminding of important things. I have total blanks where I can’t remember. Not sure why. It is scary.

Might try and sleep some more.

4 thoughts on “Insomnia and Memory Loss

  • October 15, 2014 at 4:53 pm
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    I often go blank, my anxiety constant as it is. Some days, the anxiety is at its “normal” dysfunction and I can manage – other days, like you describe here. Routine is so critical for me, too. Deviations can send me into the abyss of seething rage and an inertia where I can seem to accomplish nothing. Forgive yourself, with a lot of deep breaths. Forgiving others is nice, but forgiving yourself for being who you are, without judgment about what your own ego or the societal expectations are, is a powerful tool. I wish you peace . . . and some sleep. Everything looks better with some sleep.

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    • October 17, 2014 at 5:46 am
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      This is a lovely comment. Thanks as ever for your support. It really means a lot and I feel I can’t thank you enough 🙂

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  • October 19, 2014 at 5:27 pm
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    Thank you for taking the time to share this. This is a wonderful blog!

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