I couldn’t sleep last night. I’ve only had one hour of sleep. So feeling delicate.
Anxiety is all consuming at the moment. Went to the supermarket but felt overwhelmed so I couldn’t get everything I needed. It’s hard not to feel bad about myself. I must remember that it’s an achievement.
I tend to go in cycles with this.
Stayed round a friend’s house last night as I didn’t want to be on my own.
When I feel like this it feels like everyone is shouting at me even when they’re just talking.
I need to make a doctors appointment but I don’t feel up to phoning them. I tried the online appointment system but it failed. I must ring soon.
I’m reading a good book on emotional resilience which I’m hoping will improve my condition.
My coping strategies have fallen apart and in some ways so have I.
I’m needing to reach out at the moment as life feels very traumatic. I need to build up the strength to attend the support group meeting later.
All my routines have fallen in to disarray. I’m feeling lost at sea.
Sometimes trauma burns me up so much that my sense of self gets totally consumed. The flames of pain can burn themselves away eventually but it is a highly traumatic journey each time this happens.
I hope it doesn’t sound like moaning. Must find some strength. This past two weeks has been a huge struggle.
I have has really bad memory loss this past two weeks. Luckily my friends are reminding of important things. I have total blanks where I can’t remember. Not sure why. It is scary.
Might try and sleep some more.